#22

I lack more than I have,
I’m not as cool as you think I am.
I’m stubborn to unnecessary degrees so I do what I want,
Only looking forward, wishing better days.
Livin’ everyday like Saturday.

I’m trying to return to my beginnings,
Wanna let go of the emotions trapped in my heart.
Only gonna hold on to what I really need.

Singing, I won’t give a fuck,
I won’t give a fuck.
Whatever life may send my way,
I won’t give a fuck.

That’s right, new me, won’t give a fuck.
My regrets pushed my true feelings out
In truth, I hate myself so much right now,
I’ve often begged God to just let me die

I’m not good at acting hard,
Despite my height, I’m still a little kid inside.
My heart shakes every time I write,
My pains locked inside are unshackled.

If I turn my back, please hold me.
If I try to lean on you, please accept me.
I’m about to go crazy because I can’t even believe in myself,
I think I tired out trying to run away from myself.

I think I lost my path, there’s no light for me.
I know I look shallow, but now I’m even empty inside

I’m tired of walking, I want to give up.
I’m sick of crying alone, please stay by my side